Ghosts of Gulfport Pelicans

A seabird.

Just like the one on the tiny souvenir carving her Mother, the one I never met, sent to me from Gulfport. Swoops down and lands on my back deck in Chicago on a wet hot June summer night.

“I think I’ll try Wisconsin. Or maybe Minnesota. I hear that they have lakes,” the bird says to me. As if it was a matter of fact.

“If only.” I tell the bird.

“We will be back,” says the bird.

“Yeah, that’s what she told me. But I never saw her again.”

“Truer words!” he smiles a pelican grin. “But then I guess you’re not in charge.”

And as the ocean fills with oil, the pelican flies north, and the world poises to rebuild; I remember all those ghosts of summer’s past.

The wisdom in her eyes.

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Part 6: Practicing Stewardship

Excerpted from “Finding Work: When There Are No Jobs.” Copyright 2010 Roger Wright.

Part Six: Practicing Stewardship
Chapter 1: Finding Unity: Dr. King Tosses Me the Baseball

Remember—Stewardship means taking care of something bigger than you. And UNITY can be an idea that leads you to Stewardship.

How?

Unify ANYTHING. A family. A company. A fleet of cars. A herd of cows. And there is more to take care of. A need for more stewardship.

And if you can take care of MORE—-you can show more value.

The MORE you take care of—the more opportunity for stewardship. The more the opportunity for taking care of something larger than yourself. For Practicing Stewardship.

Examples of “Unity” run all through this story. The unity Dr. King advocated in leading the struggle for civil rights. The unity of parents and children. The Unity that can come from sharing a sport like baseball. And there are other examples.

In the story, the Unity is illustrated in grander, world changing terms like civil rights. But unity can also be a very concrete, pragmatic driving force when it comes to finding work. For instance, “I used to take care of one building. Now I take care of two.” At the Food Pantry we used to serve 30 people. Now the need has grown, so we serve 90. And the reason the need grew? The UNITY between the newly hungry and those whose struggles have been going on for years.

So as you read this selection, start thinking about UNITY in your own life. How unity can produce a larger need. And how practicing stewardship can help you fill that need.

What if you could somehow promote Unity in some specific situation? What if you could take care of more? And more? And more?

How might that help you find work?

THE STORY

I was 8 years old. Dr. King still had about three more years of work to do before he’d be shot on the balcony of a motel in Memphis. Gun shots that would set angry fires blazing and police sirens wailing pain in almost every big city in America and then land him squarely in the history books forever and a day.

He would be speaking in our village. And this was really different from anywhere else he had ever done his work.

My family and I were walking to the “Village Green” to listen. A square block of open green near the downtown section of town where I walked with my Dad every Saturday morning to do errands. But this walk was different. It all seemed in slow motion. Nothing even close to this had ever happened here before. The population of the village was 13,000. By days end the crowd to just see him was put at 10,000.

I keep saying “Village”

Back then you could almost call it a village. Just 100 years before that day he spoke; it was a General Store on the Green Bay trail. A sprinkling of cabins in the woods, next to the giant, wild inland Lake Michigan on a road just named for Philip Sheridan, the Union General, friend of US Grant, who not too many years earlier had told his boss Abraham Lincoln: “Give me the troops and the guns,” and then had gone off hell bent after Robert E. Lee.

Into the 20th century when the river of money began flowing north from Chicago; and the big F. Scott Fitzgerald houses came to own the Lake Michigan Shoreline; the cabins and the trading post gone now—and you had to go even further north up towards Milwaukee, up to where the author Ray Bradbury staked out the overgrown deep green ravines and dandelion wine summers of his childhood to find the traces of wildness that once roamed the woods of our little village.

Bradbury called the little town he came from—about 10 or 15 miles due north of our village—he called it Greentown, Illinois. And from Greentown Illinois, Ray Bradbury would say “Give me the pencil and paper. Because I can tell a story.”

Green Town Illinois just up the road from us where Jack Benny would first hone his craft saying “Give me a microphone. Because I can make you laugh.”

Benny and Bradbury off to larger stages; but there was still a feel of a village on that slow motion July day when the families all walked hesitantly, almost gingerly, up to the green to hear the speech. Looked at from an aerial view filtered through the lens of a sociologist; at that point in time: this was a middle class awakening suburb with a string of massive wealth that ran along that same Lake Michigan shoreline. These weren’t homes. These were estates. Everybody else—like us—had a house. And everybody else was—like us—very, very white. As Caucasian as could be.

Now the town is just another suburb where kids, some of color, drive their own BMW’s and Mercedes to high school.

But back then it still had echoes of the small town village it once was. Walking up to the town square that day could have been something lifted straight from a Frank Capra movie with Jimmy Stewart coming home from the war being the featured speaker.

And not the Rev. Dr. Martin Luther King.

There wasn’t a lot of talking in our family as we walked up to the Green. My Uncle Frank, a true Chicago, new deal, Stevenson should have gotten it, intellectual guy who was a college administrator AND an old line liberal Democrat who also had a Purple Heart from WW II—did most of the talking. (This is back before the idea that liberals could be war heroes too had been erased from our collective national consciousness.) Uncle Frank was pretty excited. So was my Mom. My Dad, who was often mistaken for a CIA agent when my parents went to anti-war rallies—was quiet—preferring to wait for some facts.

I was a skinny, crew cut, big headed kid in a wide stripped t-shirt tossing a baseball up and down who looked a little like an extra on the set of “Leave it to Beaver.”

And so because this was a village. And because I’ve always had this curiosity about the way things work —when we got to the Green and my Mom put down a blanket—it was no surprise when I said, “I’m going to go look around!” And my Mom said, “Make sure you’re back before he starts to speak! And I said, “OK Bye!”

The afternoon had started to build to this sort of cautious festival feeling. There were folk singers. A warm-up speaker or two—all of whom Uncle Frank had talked about or knew. The crowd was building steadily

Perfect for the little stripe shirted, story telling boy, me— to go practice something he still does: being invisible.

Quiet children who don’t want to be seen have ways of blending into the background so that even the most observant of adults would have to do a double take to make sure they saw a kid over there.

So that’s what I did.

Being invisible does not mean being still. “Still” prompts suspicion. (“How come that kid over there ain’t moving!”?)

So what I would do to keep moving but still stay invisible was to toss my baseball up to about face level, and let it plop down in my mitt. All the grownups would see the baseball; but I was invisible. I could watch and hear everything they said.

Up near the front of the crowd, behind the podium and microphone was where I felt drawn. A thicker, deeper crowd there. Easier to get lost. More policemen than I had every seen so it had to be safe. My Dad and Mom wouldn’t mind.

Everyone seemed to be waiting for him. For “Martin Luther King.” Everyone said the name as if it were all one word. “MartinLutherKing.”

I stayed there in the middle of all this waiting part of the crowd. And the longer I stayed, the more invisible I became, I began to hear a word repeated I hadn’t heard at all from Uncle Frank on the walk up to the big show.

I’d catch the word at the end of sentence—because the emotion of the sentence was put on the one word. The word was “arrogant.” I thought I knew what it meant. But I didn’t hear the word a lot—if ever—so I wasn’t sure.

I’d hear the word, laden with some sort of emotion. Then I’d see the same kind of look my parents would give each other when they wanted to communicate something unpleasant without using words. That knowing arch of the eyebrow.

“Arrogant.”

I might have even heard somebody say “uppity.” That, I understood.

I was about to go back to our family blanket, when I saw the cars. And the cars held me riveted. There were SEVEN of them. All the biggest, blackest, shiniest Cadillac limousines—bigger than any car I’d ever seen driven by the rich people who lived on Sheridan Road. My eyes rounding up to become as big as my head. Cars were almost as interesting as baseball. I knew I supposed to be back with my parents—I was a kid who pretty much did what he was told—so I knew I probably should go back. But these were really, cool, cars! And I could slip back through the crowd like lightening once this enormous parade of black sheet metal rolled to a stop. I could not get my little 8 year old brain wrapped around the questions:

“Why does MartinLutherKing need so many cars? How did he get so many cars? Which car is he in?”

The cars rolled to a stop. And then what happened next held me in absolute awe. Out of each car came this parade of large black men, all dressed in the sharpest suites I had ever seen—all of them: looking every where. Scanning everything. Every face. Every sound, every nuance of movement. I had never, ever seen that kind of attention to ANYTHING as this strange little throng of maybe 20 African American men: set down right here. Right now. In the middle of 10,000 Caucasians’ moved as one to the podium.

Still as a rock now—the only movement the toss of my baseball—I then had my very first moment of sheer, overwhelming, breath stopping, heart pounding, stomach tightening panic: when I realized that this flying wedge of terrifying men—unlike any I had ever seen up close: was coming straight towards me.

I was standing right between this rolling thunder of men in suits and the microphone. I wondered if this is what it felt like to die. . . . .

With the first battalion of this wave 3 steps away—they were not moving fast—they were being very, very cautious as they rolled eyes always in motion; with the first man so close I could see the jagged shape of the red handkerchief in his breast pocket—it flashed into my 10 year old soul: that I understood what these men were doing.

They were looking around like that, staying so close together, never smiling, they were doing all that because all 20 or 100 or however many had gotten out of those cars were protecting someone,

They were guarding the man in the middle. The one I could see now. The one who looked so tired. I looked at that man and even I could see: that man is very, very tired. And I remember thinking, I wonder if he’ll take a nap when he gets home like my Dad likes to do sometimes on Sunday afternoons. That man with the tired eyes in the middle of the crowd. It did not occur to meat that instant that the man was MartinLutherKing. I was too scared for a thought that rational.

And then, just then my fear ratcheted up to yet another level that was totally new when I realized that the man in the middle of all this—whoever that man was: was the single, lone adult who —in the last hour of my wanderings—had actually seen me! He looked right at me! He looked right at me!

About 6 steps away. I was frozen. Even the baseball was hidden in the mitt.

Then here’s what happened.

The man at the very center of all this put up his right hand. His palm in my line of vision. Framed against an open, blue summer sky. And as he did this, as he raised has palm: everyone around him stopped moving! They just stopped. Right there. Like he had pulled some sort of magical brake that held them all.

Then that man with those bone tired eyes looked at me in a way that made me know that he had kids too.

Could that be how “arrogant” people look at kids? I sure didn’t think so. Of course I was only 8.

And while all those men in suits kept looking everywhere, surrounding him, protecting him, he said, “You play ball son?”

I nodded. Speech had totally left me.

Then he held out his hand—the one that that had stopped the parade—and here’s what he said:

He said, “Son. Give me the ball.”

I nodded. Handed it to him. He took it. Rubbed it in his hands, the same why I did, the players did, the same way anybody would. He closed his tired eyes for just a minute, I saw the faint lines of a smile when he said, “Got to make some time to play some catch.”

Then he tossed the ball back to me.

And thank God I caught it.

CONNECTING TO ACTION

1. Where do you see a need for UNITY in your life? With people? Organizations? Communities? Business? The exchange of goods and services.

2. If you were to pick one of those needs where you could add value, what would it be?

3. If you were to make that need for unity 10% less; what would be the result? For others? For you?

4. What exactly do you need to do to make that happen?

MY PERSONAL ACTION PLAN NOTES:

What do I need to do now to promote unity? Not in grand abstract terms. But concretely. What could I join together? Make larger?
What in my life is larger than me? And how can I help take care of it?

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Bonnie Koloc–Still That Good

Before you ever heard Ella Fitzgerald, Dinah Washington, Sarah Vaughn or Joe Williams sing. Such long, long long ago Sunday mornings. Warm summer breezes on Wells Street in Chicago. Late breakfast time. The musicians all there at another table. Bonnie Koloc like a beacon eating breakfast. All of them so good at what they did. You didn’t know why. But you knew how good they were. Koloc and Goodman and Prine. So you just drank some coffee. Read your newspaper. Left them alone.

Now all these years later. On Bonne Koloc’s mailing list, she sends a note. And there’s a You Tube clip of her singing Ed Holstein’s Jazzman. You click in expecting a memory.

And you get right now. Not a memory. Right now. She’s still that good.

Note that there is no one playing that piano. Note there is no band. Note it is just her.

And she’s still that good.

So as you listen to her sing: you think, “Maybe I’m still that good too!”

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Marvin Isley’s Hundred Times

Maybe there was a hint of warm summer breezes passing inside the hospice at Weiss Memorial Hospital in Chicago when Marvin Isley, youngest of the musical brothers took his last breath at age 56.

The diabetes took his legs. He stopped performing in 1996. And he passed this Sunday morning.

Rising from the streets of Cincinnati to sing for the world, the band and their music changed with the times. This song was first recorded by his older brothers before Marvin even joined the band in 1973.

So. As another summer wind blows in off Lake Michigan; perhaps his bothers are singing this song for him now.

While somewhere else, this very second, one person is saying to another; “If you leave me a hundred times, a hundred times I’ll take you back.”

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Raymond Chandler’s Little Glass Family

30 times in 30 years they moved. Raymond Chandler and his wife Cissy. The story is from “The Long Embrace”—author Judith Freeman’s brilliant journey to know the Chandlers.

Each time, packing up to head out to another apartment somewhere in or around Los Angeles, Cissy would be in charge of gently wrapping their collection of glass animals. Each had a name. A personality. A family for these two travelers.

And as Chandler went about creating Phillip Marlowe, as he wrote, his tiny glass family would keep watch.

Families in all shapes and sizes.

And surprises. Like the one that comes after the Prine and Goodman Duet.

Surprises like Raymond and Cissy’s little glass family.

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A Song I was Writing Was Left Undone

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Aunt Terri Hemmert at the White House

When Paul McCartney accepts the Gershwin Award in the East Wing of the White House, Aunt Terri Hemmert won’t be on the stage. But for thousands upon thousands of Chicagoans of a certain age she’ll be right up there in importance with all the glittering dignitaries and the world class talent honoring Sir Paul.

Because when our Aunt Terri is sitting in that audience, we will be too.

It’s been that way through the decades. She’s radio in Chicago. And like that small select group that made their mark as radio in Chicago, she’s simply not like anyone else.

Walk along any given Chicago street, the summer winds cooling the heat baked into the sidewalks and you might see her. Wave and a smile, “Hey Terri Hemmert!” And ever since those early days when the likes of John Belushi or even Muddy Waters prowled the festivals, the summer night concerts, the smoky winter jams, she’d smile and wave back.

Mention the Beatles in Chicago and somehow her name is in the next sentence. Aunt Terri isn’t really just a fan. She’s more of a living link to the music. When she hears the music, somehow we all hear it better. It comes through in all the exuberance, the struggles, the sorrows, and underlying it all, it comes through in the strength.

It’s a pretty nebulous talent she has. Hard to pin it down. Shape it and color it or put it to song.

But maybe that’s the point. Her talent goes beyond the words. Like the music does.

Maybe that’s why honoring Paul McCartney for anything really wouldn’t be right unless Aunt Terri was in the audience.

And because she will be there, there are a whole lot of people who will be there too.

And for those few hours there will be something very, very right in our very troubled world.

As we listen with Aunt Terri.

To the joy she’s helped us hear for so many, many years.

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Daddy? Did you plug the hole yet?

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Oil on the Dragonfly

That is oil on the wings of the dragonfly.

Gulf breezes blow in like they always have. And the ghosts of Faulkner and Walker Percy and Thomas Wolfe just weep.

Beyond blame and politics and really bad ideas.

The dragonfly can’t move. Stuck in the oil.

John Denver comes back to sing: “And the song that I am singing is a prayer for non-believers. Come and stand beside us. We can find a better way.”

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Justice O’Connor Comes to Wrigley Field

As Justice Sandra Day O’Conner walked out on to the green grass of Wrigley Field in Chicago on a cool May night and handed baseballs to the circle of umpires, she told them to be fair.

And coming from her. I wanted to be fair too.

I once heard another leader explain what leadership looks like by saying, “Want to know if you’re a leader? Turn around and see if anyone is following.”

It’s the rare leader who just by their presence can blend charisma with substance. Make you want to raise your hand and shout out, “Wait! Wherever you’re going, I want to go there too!” Justice O’Conner’s presence, rippling out through the crowded stadium and then beamed out to the television audience radiated that kind of presence.

So when she announced her mission, of promoting www.ourcourts.org — a way to re-energize and engage middle school children with civics—anyone with a pulse would have paid attention. Paid attention and then as she simply and very directly spoke, began to care.

She began: Middle school kids are curious. They’re full of energy. They are just on their way. And the way we get them interested is by doing what they like to do—playing games! The games on the site, with titles like: “Argument Wars” or “Supreme Decision” are fun. The kids like them!

Sitting with the TV announcers, she looked out over the brilliantly lit diamond and stadium and said, “The energy here! It’s a beautiful night. The stands are full and everyone is having fun.” Everyone cares!

It’s a lot like our mission.

We’re going to take a whole generation of kids and make sure they care about civics again.

That was the mission. To once again care about what it means to be a citizen. Not to preach, not to take a side, to change teaching strategies, to intimidate, spread fear and divisiveness to such an extent that kids, or even some of us adults, simply stop listening.

The best leaders know what should be put off stage, ready to help, but out of the spotlight. Justice O’Conner knew that teachers need lesson plans, so there are lesson plans on the site. She knew that ineffective teaching was one of the reasons civics education is disappearing across the country. She knew all the reasons why we should teach civics.

But all of that was off to the side. Pushed off stage. Because she knew that up front in the spotlight; kids, and even some of us adults, are easily bored. Lots of noise and clutter in our lives to cut through. And boredom. So we end up not caring.

She’s not the only one that cares. For 10 years, the “Mikva Challenge,” an organization dreamed by two other icons of leadership, Judge Abner Mikva and his wife Zoe, have worked for the same mission. Not just to improve civics education, get better teaching, more funding, all those essential building blocks, but to zero in on the true, passionate beating heart of the mission, which is to honestly care about what it means to be a citizen.

So this week, there sat Justice Sandra Day O’Conner, illuminated by the television lights, chatting with the announcers high above Wrigley Field, her brilliant white hair set off against the Chicago night. Already having been a Justice of the Supreme Court. At age 80—setting out to change an entire generation. With many of us believing she could.

Sitting there, so far from her own Arizona skies, lyrics from the great songwriter John Hiatt came to mind,

I’ve been sleeping for some hours
Just woke up and you were there
Like the morning, like the flowers
Sunlight whispering in my ears
Red tail hawk shooting down the canyon
Put me on that wind he rides.
I will be your true companion
When we reach the other side.
I will try, I will stumble
But I will fly, he told me so
Proud and high, or low and humble
Many miles before I go.

And when I heard the lyric, prompted by Justice O’Connor speaking, I knew she’d succeed.

And the next generation would have leaders too.

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